Oblivious

How much longer do I have to wait?
They tell me to let go, they tell me to move on
But do I want to move on?
Do I want to let go of all this?
I don’t want us to just be ‘friends’
But I know you won’t be happy, comfortable, with anything else
I know she’s there, I know your feelings for her
Will I ever mean that much to you?

I’m gliding on imaginary wings
Held aloft by the thought of you
But the wings are deteriorating
Falling apart feather by feather
Decaying into nothingness
You’re still here, I’m still here
But we’re not here, there’s no ‘us’.
There never was ‘us’
It was all in my head wasn’t it?
I never meant that much to you
Even though you already mean the world to me.

But you’ll never know, I won’t let you know
I don’t want you to see the tears and suffering
The emotional rollercoaster you sent me on, unknowingly.

Will you ever get over ‘her’?
I don’t know how much longer I can wait.
Will you ever see me standing here?
Please tell me you aren’t that blind.

Wake up and see me here
Because I can’t wait much longer
Don’t make me wait here alone
Surrounded by this sea of tears.
I’m drowning in my sorrow, but you’re not here
You can’t see me, can’t see all of this.

I won’t bear to see you with someone else
I know you’re not cruel enough to let someone suffer like this
But it’s not cruelty this time; it’s ignorance.
You’re ignorant of everything
Despite my words, despite my feelings.
You’re oblivious.